if you can hold on, hold on
May. 22nd, 2012 09:54 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
This isn't a scene I ever wanted to witness.
The run to the Compound was brutal, and Tony was on his way out to get Xavier when I was on my way in. At some point, I took the Shield off my back and set it on an unoccupied bed.
There are doctors moving deftly from the table Bucky's stretched out on to the sink, or trays of gauze and utensils and back again. I didn't let anyone get near the arm until Dr. McCoy was there. I know the kind of technology he's worked with. He removed it, and I felt something wrench in my gut. I was vaguely aware of someone at my elbow speaking with concern before I shrugged them off and went around to watch them peel away the Winter Soldier's uniform. It would take a soldering iron to cut through it. He's covered in superficial wounds- severe bruising, mostly, damage to his ribs. With the arm gone, they manage all right.
Oh, God, Bucky.
I beg off questions, agree to let McCoy take care of the knife wound in my side after another reprimand I barely register. I'm numb to it, whatever he's doing. I don't bring up the gash on my leg. There's enough blood and dirt that I can't imagine anyone noticing for a while, anyway.
"...you'll want to restrain him," I say, as the thought occurs, though the words are hard to get out. I catch Rory frowning in my peripheral vision, bagging the ruined and blood soaked t-shirt I'd been wearing before depositing it in the trash.
"Just- until-"
There's a sound in the hallway of heavy metal on flooring and I'm up, off the spare bed, ignoring Dr. McCoy's curse of frustration.
"Professor?"
The run to the Compound was brutal, and Tony was on his way out to get Xavier when I was on my way in. At some point, I took the Shield off my back and set it on an unoccupied bed.
There are doctors moving deftly from the table Bucky's stretched out on to the sink, or trays of gauze and utensils and back again. I didn't let anyone get near the arm until Dr. McCoy was there. I know the kind of technology he's worked with. He removed it, and I felt something wrench in my gut. I was vaguely aware of someone at my elbow speaking with concern before I shrugged them off and went around to watch them peel away the Winter Soldier's uniform. It would take a soldering iron to cut through it. He's covered in superficial wounds- severe bruising, mostly, damage to his ribs. With the arm gone, they manage all right.
Oh, God, Bucky.
I beg off questions, agree to let McCoy take care of the knife wound in my side after another reprimand I barely register. I'm numb to it, whatever he's doing. I don't bring up the gash on my leg. There's enough blood and dirt that I can't imagine anyone noticing for a while, anyway.
"...you'll want to restrain him," I say, as the thought occurs, though the words are hard to get out. I catch Rory frowning in my peripheral vision, bagging the ruined and blood soaked t-shirt I'd been wearing before depositing it in the trash.
"Just- until-"
There's a sound in the hallway of heavy metal on flooring and I'm up, off the spare bed, ignoring Dr. McCoy's curse of frustration.
"Professor?"
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Date: 2012-05-24 03:42 am (UTC)No. He was supposed to avoid this, supposed to get up after that damned repulsor hit him in the back, but the seconds leading up to his blacking out are missing. It's only when his head slams against the bed in his attempt to break free, stars exploding in his field of vision, that he realizes Rogers must've got him with the shield. He bites down a scream, breathing hard through his nose as he continues his futile fight with renewed fervor.
"Don't have one."
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Date: 2012-05-24 03:53 am (UTC)"Ask him what he's called," I suggest, then step away again.
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Date: 2012-05-24 04:33 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2012-05-24 04:34 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2012-05-24 04:35 am (UTC)"Humour me."
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Date: 2012-05-24 04:36 am (UTC)'You don't know what you're doing.' That's what he'd been told earlier, isn't it? For the first time, he's got to wonder if that wasn't the truth, the thought alone enough to send his mind reeling. His lips curl around a sneer all the same.
"...Winter Soldier."
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Date: 2012-05-24 04:36 am (UTC)"And do you know where you are, Winter Soldier?"
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Date: 2012-05-24 04:37 am (UTC)"...no."
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Date: 2012-05-24 04:51 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2012-05-24 05:09 am (UTC)The illusion of calm shatters in an instant. His heart jumping up against bruised ribs, he fights to turn his head in a wild bid to see his real captor.
"Where is he?!"
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Date: 2012-05-24 05:19 am (UTC)"Not hiding anywhere," I say, and walk around to the side of the table that Tony isn't standing on. The side that's emptier on account of his arm having been removed. I can see McCoy reacting to something on the screen he's looking at, but I don't bother asking what. Just keep my eyes level on Bucky.
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Date: 2012-05-24 05:44 am (UTC)Yet there's nothing controlled or dignified about the way he presses up against the tin suit, the effort grueling and frenzied in its attempt to force Tony's hand. Break the table and maybe he'll be able to complete his objective. Break the table and maybe he'll get out of this alive.
(He's in another room. A doctor stands at the ready, preparing to issue another jolt of electricity through his dead body, when, all at once, there's a flurry of activity: a speeding heartrate, a desperate struggle to breathe. Bucky sits up ramrod straight in the bed, unable to focus on anything beyond the excruciating pain in his shoulder, the sharp pinch in his chest, the bandage wrapping tightly around his ribs.
Who's Bucky?)
"You coward," he says, nearly laughing in his fury. "Is this the only way you think you can beat me? Strapped to a table?"
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Date: 2012-05-24 05:53 am (UTC)There's no talking him down from this. There's no getting through this kind of blind rage. He's going to buckle the table if he can, and it's possible that he can.
The last time I went up against the Winter Soldier, he seemed indifferent or annoyed most of the time. He didn't get angry until I pushed him to remember who he was. And even then, when he pulled the trigger, point blank, even then there wasn't hatred like this, filling up his words and his eyes, coming off of him in waves.
"Bucky, we're gonna fix this," I say, the words falling out of me, just managing to pitch them over the racket he's generating.
"I swear it."
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Date: 2012-05-24 06:45 am (UTC)Couldn't say. If they had the info, sure, otherwise, different skillsets. Maybe wanting a pattern where there wasn't one, because that would mean a single culprit still extant, rather than several.
"We're going to have fix some broken bones, too, if we don't put him under again," Tony said. "He's not exactly responding well, here. Doc?"
The nickname he would have reached for was Bones, but it didn't work as well when it was actually their nickname.
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Date: 2012-05-24 11:21 am (UTC)Still, he's got a good idea of where they're going to have to target. "Put him under again before someone gets hurt," he says, on the edge of pleading. Everyone's fine and he doesn't want to push things. He glances up at Tony, already knowing where he has to target. "I need a delivery mechanism into the brain accompanied by a light charge. I'm gonna do a reboot," he says, tossing the sedative to Tony so he can start assembling something out of his chemicals that'll go for the layers on top of the baseline and try and strip 'em away like paint thinner.
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Date: 2012-05-24 02:07 pm (UTC)"The programming appears to have been built over James' own architecture rather than from the ground up, as we might have expected. His foundations remain intact," he explains as he reaches for the datapadd, pulling up the brain scan from the moment Barnes had first seen Steve. "See this here? His prefrontal cortex and amygdala -- that is, the parts of the brain that store long-term memory and process emotion -- lit up when you spoke to him. He recognized you, not from today, but from before... I believe the severity of his reaction was the programming trying to overcompensate for an emotional response."
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Date: 2012-05-24 03:18 pm (UTC)I wish Natasha was here.
"What- light charge?" I ask, looking up, finding McCoy.
"What happens now?"
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Date: 2012-05-24 04:38 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2012-05-24 04:45 pm (UTC)"What about his memory? How much is this going undo?"
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Date: 2012-05-24 07:09 pm (UTC)Charles will need to tread carefully lest they end up needing to sedate another soldier.
"But theoretically, nothing. Given its location, the conditioning poses the greatest threat to his short-term memory, so if he loses anything, it'll only be a few hours. It's just as likely he'll remember it all. We're targeting what's forcing him to forget, not the memories themselves. He should wake up normal."
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Date: 2012-05-25 01:41 am (UTC)He took in Cap's state as he reached the table. He seemed... rattled. He almost felt like he liked the guy a little more for it. There was stuff other than saintly paragon-ness going on in that head, then.
"How light is light?" he said, regarding the tools at his disposal and then starting to grab pieces and patch them together, using the suit's HUD to keep it all finetuned. This was the brain they were dealing with. "Tell you what, I'll see about making it variable in case you need to refine it."
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Date: 2012-05-25 02:19 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2012-05-25 03:41 am (UTC)"In case the first time doesn't work? How many tries will this take? How many tries can he take? Tell me this isn't going to be a gamble, nothing but trial and error! He may be resilient but he's not goddamn indestructible!"
It's not the noise that alerts me to the fact I've slammed my fist into medical table, with medical instruments on it, or even the sensation of a knuckle or two splitting open. It's the fact that several people are staring. I'm aware of it, but I just don't care.
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Date: 2012-05-25 03:50 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2012-05-25 03:53 am (UTC)"Maybe grab some air? We'll grab some air, I'm done here."
He held up what he'd been working on.
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