"It was putting me through my paces. It was driving a point home to me, because I can't accept, have never accepted, that I lost you that day." It's the truth of it, not that I ever wanted to lay it all out like this. Of the people I've been closest to in my life- Tony, Sam, Sharon- Bucky, for all the time we spent apart, will always be different. Our relationship exists on a fine line of silent understanding and the knowledge that we can be honest with each other, even if that means we don't always have to be.

"The fact that you were there, that you had to live through that again- and again- I can't swallow this, Bucky, I can't stand doing nothing in the face of it all."